Treatment

This IVF stuff is INSANELY expensive!! Holy TOLEDO!! The amount of money I am just handing out BETTER produce me a baby!! I am about to have heart failure!!

Whew .. ok .. I feel better!! We started "Treatment" last week and I know now why I do NOT take birth control pills .. UGH! They make me soooo nauseated and not to mention the headaches. But ... just a few more days THEN I get to shoot myself FULL of hormones and subject myself to 3 times a week lab draws and sonograms.

We go to meet with the doctor in Lubbock Thursday morning and we will get more answers then BUT it is looking like I will have my embryo transfer on or ABOUT April 25th. That is just terrifying for me to say out loud!! As we all know .. I am the one that REALLY thinks about this kind of stuff and there is a chance that I can have NO children, ONE child, TWO children, THREE children OR FOUR children!! OMG!! Talk about ANXIETY!!! Mark would be TICKLED with 2 or 3 ... He is CRAZY!! I REALLY would be ok with just one ... two is a stretch .. but .. I am doing this for him because he has none of his own and I think that since I am physically able to carry a child then I should do that for him .......... WOW .. did that just SERIOUSLY come out of my mouth??! (haha).

I will update as we go ... I am scared to death!! But .... If it is meant to be that WE have a child or childrens together then .. SO BE IT! It is a little different for me CONSIDERING he is wanting to be all kinds a part of this ... He WANTS the kids and he is WILLING to help ... That is just a foreign thing for me!! But ... that just makes me LOVE him even more!!