Well .. I am going cRaZZY!! I hate this bedrest thing. I have accomplished plenty but MAN ... I have a house to maintain, children to take care of .. ya know .. MOM STUFF!! But .. I just have one more day!
I get a blood draw Friday to check my levels of my Progesterone. And ... May 4th we will have our pregnancy test ... It is sooo LONG away!! I am pretty sure I will break before then and do one. But .. then again .. what happens if it comes up negative??! EEK!
So ... That is all I have right now ... I am bored with this bed rest business. But ... It will be over soon!
Piper
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Brandan and Jaret
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Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Babies are IN!
Well ... today was the day!! The babies have been placed ... yes BABIES ... there were 2 put in. We lost 4 in the process. The lab guy said that they "arrested" ... I am assuming that means that they died. Sad ... but ... we still had 7 that were viable!! We placed 2 so that leaves us 5 to freeze.
We were in Lubbock for the transfer at 3 pm and we were out the door by 4:15 pm!! I had to pee so bad by that point. It was AWFUL!! I was so miserable and it is something else to lay with your head down and all your organs heading towards your brain and your bladder full!!
Ok .. so in 5 days I go back for a blood draw and in 10 days I go for the first pregnancy test .... They say that there will be a series of 3 tests to make sure that my levels maintain. We will have a TON of sonos which just thrills me to no end.
I will let you know!!
We were in Lubbock for the transfer at 3 pm and we were out the door by 4:15 pm!! I had to pee so bad by that point. It was AWFUL!! I was so miserable and it is something else to lay with your head down and all your organs heading towards your brain and your bladder full!!
Ok .. so in 5 days I go back for a blood draw and in 10 days I go for the first pregnancy test .... They say that there will be a series of 3 tests to make sure that my levels maintain. We will have a TON of sonos which just thrills me to no end.
I will let you know!!
Friday, April 22, 2011
Updates on the egglets .. I mean EMBRYOS!
Ok .. so Wednesday I got the call for the update on the egglets. They retrieved 12 and 11 fertilized successfully!! That was cool news! That was the news that we wanted to hear at this stage of the game. Not sure what happened to the one that didn't fertilize. I honestly don't know if I want to know!! haha ...
Thursday's call revealed that all 11 divided and were progressing. 1 had 5 cells, 1 had 2 cells, and 9 had 4 cells. This is also good news. Our egglet watcher said that this is EXACTLY where they need to be at this stage and tomorrow will be the big kicker as to who is good and who isn't. All the embryos are mature and of good quality so far.
Friday's call was AWESOME!! All embryos have 6-8 cells and ALL are of good quality!! That means I will have NINE amazing little embryos to donate for someone to have a baby and 2 that will come to me and hopefully take up residence and produce some healthy babies OR baby. Tomorrow we will know what time Sunday we need to be in Lubbock to have the little ones put into the oven for baking!! I can say that I am now honestly TERRIFIED!!!
This whole process has been an amazing experience and I am happy that I agreed to do it for Mark. The whole process has also been SCARY AS HELL for me due to the fact that my children are housebroke and half raised!! The thought of starting over is so scary!! BUT ... I know that it will be good in the end.
I will let you know how the transfer goes .. and in 12 days from Sunday ... we will know if it was successful. Prayers would be fantastic. Thanks all!!
Thursday's call revealed that all 11 divided and were progressing. 1 had 5 cells, 1 had 2 cells, and 9 had 4 cells. This is also good news. Our egglet watcher said that this is EXACTLY where they need to be at this stage and tomorrow will be the big kicker as to who is good and who isn't. All the embryos are mature and of good quality so far.
Friday's call was AWESOME!! All embryos have 6-8 cells and ALL are of good quality!! That means I will have NINE amazing little embryos to donate for someone to have a baby and 2 that will come to me and hopefully take up residence and produce some healthy babies OR baby. Tomorrow we will know what time Sunday we need to be in Lubbock to have the little ones put into the oven for baking!! I can say that I am now honestly TERRIFIED!!!
This whole process has been an amazing experience and I am happy that I agreed to do it for Mark. The whole process has also been SCARY AS HELL for me due to the fact that my children are housebroke and half raised!! The thought of starting over is so scary!! BUT ... I know that it will be good in the end.
I will let you know how the transfer goes .. and in 12 days from Sunday ... we will know if it was successful. Prayers would be fantastic. Thanks all!!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Drs appointment 04/19/11
Well .. today was eviction day for the egglets. That was very exciting for us! I think Mark was VERY excited to finally be in the final stages but he was also very worried about me as well. They retrieved 12 egglets today and they were classified as healthy and mature. YEAH! We plan to donate the remaining embroys so that someone else can have a baby!!
The little egglets are hanging out in the spermie pool for the next 24 hours and then I believe they are moved to an incubator type thing so that they can imitate the "womb" until they are ready to be transplanted. Which seems to be scheduled for Easter Sunday. That is just so cool!!
I will get updates daily about the progress of my egglets (embryos). The lab guy is really REALLY knowledgeable about what he does and he told us that he will be in contact daily and he will let us know how the little ones are doing.
I will let all know tomorrow what the lab guy says ...
The little egglets are hanging out in the spermie pool for the next 24 hours and then I believe they are moved to an incubator type thing so that they can imitate the "womb" until they are ready to be transplanted. Which seems to be scheduled for Easter Sunday. That is just so cool!!
I will get updates daily about the progress of my egglets (embryos). The lab guy is really REALLY knowledgeable about what he does and he told us that he will be in contact daily and he will let us know how the little ones are doing.
I will let all know tomorrow what the lab guy says ...
Monday, April 18, 2011
12 hours .. and yes .. Mark IS counting!
Well .. in 12 hours I am evicting these eggs!! We are a go for a 7 am retrival in Lubbock. I am freaking terrified but Mark of course is counting the minutes!! I will be OUT for the procedure (THANK GOD because there is NO way that I could be still knowing that she has a needle up my whoo hoo and is poking things in there!!)
We will know Wednesday if the fertilization process took. We will get a call everyday updating us on the process of our little embryos. So ... in about 14 hours my little eggs will be freely swimming in spermies!! haha .. SORRY!! I just HAD to!!
Ok .. that is all for me tonight because I am hitting the bed. 4 am is MIGHTY early for this cow and I am needing some sleep so that I am not all crazy tomorrow. Nighty!
We will know Wednesday if the fertilization process took. We will get a call everyday updating us on the process of our little embryos. So ... in about 14 hours my little eggs will be freely swimming in spermies!! haha .. SORRY!! I just HAD to!!
Ok .. that is all for me tonight because I am hitting the bed. 4 am is MIGHTY early for this cow and I am needing some sleep so that I am not all crazy tomorrow. Nighty!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Weekend of appointments
Well .. this weekend we spent the entire weekend in Lubbock for EARLY morning appointments on Saturday and Sunday. Yes, a fertility clinic is open 7 days a week. The egglets don't care what day it is ... they just do their thing and we just go with it.
To start the weekend, we got to Lubbock Friday night for our appointment at the crack of dawn Saturday. We stayed in a Holiday Inn that had the WORST service we have EVER experienced. The lady at the front just set the tone for that stay and it didn't end well. So we went to our appointment and had my little (HUGE) egglets measured and they were all within range of being ready ... We went back to the room to await our phone call to see what the verdict was for going home OR staying another night. The phone call came with the news of another night and we would be back to the office on Sunday morning. By now I am REALLY feeling the fullness of HUGE ovaries and I am pretty uncomfortable. I am REALLY trying to not complain about it but sometimes I just can't help it. It really HURTS and is constantly uncomfortable. Mark takes it with a grain of salt and we move on.
We checked into a new Holiday Inn that was MUCH better. We had a nice dinner and went back to the room and chilled out. We got up and went to my appointment Sunday morning and I hear the "You are READY!!" .... WHat??? WAIT!! Ummm ...... CRAP!! All my little egglets have reached their needed size, some are over achievers and got REALLY big!! I have one that is 20 mm!! That is the one that seems to be causing me so much discomfort! So .. this is what is gonna happen.
I am NO LONGER taking all the shots!! WHOO HOO!! I am only taking the Lupron and the HcG tonight! That makes me SUPER happy!! Then tomorrow (Monday) I have to be back in Lubbock for an 11 am appointment and they will draw my levels and we will discuss Tuesday morning. I have to be at the office at 7 am .... UGH! Talk about EARLY!! I am thinking that we will stay the night in Lubbock again tomorrow night. 4 am is too early for us!! We will be going in for the retrival process... the start of the process of being pregnant. I am about to crap myself. This was such an easy and fast process!! I am kinda panicky now.
I am sent home with STRICT orders of a HIGH salt diet for the next month due to my estrogen levels being REALLY high (hyperstimulation) so I am on a NEW pill ($125.00) worth of a pill ... UGH ... for 8 days ... it helps with the hyperstimulation and apparently the high salt diet counteracts the situation inside so that I don't swell up like a whale. Kinda different than what you usually hear about high salt. But .. ok.
Tuesday the actual egglets with the little egg inside will come out ... I will be out of it so I won't be able to tell you how it happens. I get VERSED!! WHOO HOO! So ... We will have the retrival on Tuesday and five days later (which you start counting Tuesday as day zero) will be Easter Sunday. That is just the coolest. THEN .... According to the cool little wheel ... it sets us at 38 weeks on December 27 (Mark's birthday) and 40 weeks on January 10 (My birthday is the 9th) ... So ... I am voting for New Year's!! That would be super neat! Maybe this is a sign that this is just how things are supposed to be.
I have said that I am a little SCARED and that I am a little excited and HUGELY overwhelmed with all this ... BUT ... THe way Mark is so excited and the look on his face ALMOST makes the scared okay. He has been the most supportative and the most INCREDIBLE about all this. He tells me everyday that he appreciates and loves me more for the fact that I am doing this for him. I really can't think of a person that I would do this for more than him. I can't wait to marry this man and makes us a REAL LIVE famiy!!
The next update I will have will be when we know for sure that we are pregnant. I have a way that I want to tell everyone. And we aren't telling ANYONE until we have valid proof that the baby or babies are ok and that we will be able to sustain the pregnancy. My kids won't even know until then ... how do I go back and tell them that something went wrong?! Know what I mean??!
Until then folks ... I will have more blogs ... I am going to write one on what Mark and I have learned in this process. I want his side of the thoughts too!! Have a FANTASTIC Easter and if I may ask ... Please say prayers for a successful transfer and prayers for my nerves!!
LOVE!
To start the weekend, we got to Lubbock Friday night for our appointment at the crack of dawn Saturday. We stayed in a Holiday Inn that had the WORST service we have EVER experienced. The lady at the front just set the tone for that stay and it didn't end well. So we went to our appointment and had my little (HUGE) egglets measured and they were all within range of being ready ... We went back to the room to await our phone call to see what the verdict was for going home OR staying another night. The phone call came with the news of another night and we would be back to the office on Sunday morning. By now I am REALLY feeling the fullness of HUGE ovaries and I am pretty uncomfortable. I am REALLY trying to not complain about it but sometimes I just can't help it. It really HURTS and is constantly uncomfortable. Mark takes it with a grain of salt and we move on.
We checked into a new Holiday Inn that was MUCH better. We had a nice dinner and went back to the room and chilled out. We got up and went to my appointment Sunday morning and I hear the "You are READY!!" .... WHat??? WAIT!! Ummm ...... CRAP!! All my little egglets have reached their needed size, some are over achievers and got REALLY big!! I have one that is 20 mm!! That is the one that seems to be causing me so much discomfort! So .. this is what is gonna happen.
I am NO LONGER taking all the shots!! WHOO HOO!! I am only taking the Lupron and the HcG tonight! That makes me SUPER happy!! Then tomorrow (Monday) I have to be back in Lubbock for an 11 am appointment and they will draw my levels and we will discuss Tuesday morning. I have to be at the office at 7 am .... UGH! Talk about EARLY!! I am thinking that we will stay the night in Lubbock again tomorrow night. 4 am is too early for us!! We will be going in for the retrival process... the start of the process of being pregnant. I am about to crap myself. This was such an easy and fast process!! I am kinda panicky now.
I am sent home with STRICT orders of a HIGH salt diet for the next month due to my estrogen levels being REALLY high (hyperstimulation) so I am on a NEW pill ($125.00) worth of a pill ... UGH ... for 8 days ... it helps with the hyperstimulation and apparently the high salt diet counteracts the situation inside so that I don't swell up like a whale. Kinda different than what you usually hear about high salt. But .. ok.
Tuesday the actual egglets with the little egg inside will come out ... I will be out of it so I won't be able to tell you how it happens. I get VERSED!! WHOO HOO! So ... We will have the retrival on Tuesday and five days later (which you start counting Tuesday as day zero) will be Easter Sunday. That is just the coolest. THEN .... According to the cool little wheel ... it sets us at 38 weeks on December 27 (Mark's birthday) and 40 weeks on January 10 (My birthday is the 9th) ... So ... I am voting for New Year's!! That would be super neat! Maybe this is a sign that this is just how things are supposed to be.
I have said that I am a little SCARED and that I am a little excited and HUGELY overwhelmed with all this ... BUT ... THe way Mark is so excited and the look on his face ALMOST makes the scared okay. He has been the most supportative and the most INCREDIBLE about all this. He tells me everyday that he appreciates and loves me more for the fact that I am doing this for him. I really can't think of a person that I would do this for more than him. I can't wait to marry this man and makes us a REAL LIVE famiy!!
The next update I will have will be when we know for sure that we are pregnant. I have a way that I want to tell everyone. And we aren't telling ANYONE until we have valid proof that the baby or babies are ok and that we will be able to sustain the pregnancy. My kids won't even know until then ... how do I go back and tell them that something went wrong?! Know what I mean??!
Until then folks ... I will have more blogs ... I am going to write one on what Mark and I have learned in this process. I want his side of the thoughts too!! Have a FANTASTIC Easter and if I may ask ... Please say prayers for a successful transfer and prayers for my nerves!!
LOVE!
Friday, April 15, 2011
HOLY CRAP!!
HOLY CRAP!! I am sooooo freaking out now!! I went to the doctor today (Mom, Tate and I) and those little egglets are growing so fast and furious!! So .. with that being said ... I have to be back tomorrow at the crack of dawn. I am pretty sure this little retrival will take place Monday morning. I am ok with that!! I am ready for these things to be out of my poor little ovary! I am feeling the fullness more and more everyday!
So .. if this little retrival takes place Monday ... 5 days later with the countdown starting on Tuesday will mean that we will have the transfer done on Saturday, possibly Easter Sunday. That just scares the ever lovin hell out of me. This is getting so close and so real that I REALLY want to say "WAIT!!!" .... But ... seeing the way that Mark is getting about it makes me want to just get it done so that he can have the pregnancy experience.
I have been having twin dreams lately. That scares me a bit but he REALLY REALLY REALLY wants twin boys. I have 3 names that I am just in love with ... One being a girl and two boys names. I just know that since I have 3 names, that means that I will have to use them all. TRIPLETS???!! OMG!! Admit me STRAIGHT to the crazy bin! DO NOT PASS GO AND DO NOT COLLECT $200!! WOW!! That will be an experience!!
With all that said ... I really should be praying for HEALTHY babies, baby ... whatever ... It is just so hard to grasp this at this moment.
So .. if this little retrival takes place Monday ... 5 days later with the countdown starting on Tuesday will mean that we will have the transfer done on Saturday, possibly Easter Sunday. That just scares the ever lovin hell out of me. This is getting so close and so real that I REALLY want to say "WAIT!!!" .... But ... seeing the way that Mark is getting about it makes me want to just get it done so that he can have the pregnancy experience.
I have been having twin dreams lately. That scares me a bit but he REALLY REALLY REALLY wants twin boys. I have 3 names that I am just in love with ... One being a girl and two boys names. I just know that since I have 3 names, that means that I will have to use them all. TRIPLETS???!! OMG!! Admit me STRAIGHT to the crazy bin! DO NOT PASS GO AND DO NOT COLLECT $200!! WOW!! That will be an experience!!
With all that said ... I really should be praying for HEALTHY babies, baby ... whatever ... It is just so hard to grasp this at this moment.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
04/13 Doctors appointment
Another egglet check today ... It is down to the wire so I am going every 2 days now ... I have 8 little egglets in each ovary and I am starting to feel the "fullness" and it is quite uncomfortable. I notice it more when my bladder is full and well ... during times that no one wants to hear about ... haha!
Dr. Dorsett seems to think that we will be doing our retrival on Tuesday next week ... then 5 days later .. it will be the transfer!! HOLY SHIT!! In a WEEK I will be getting pregnant!! Talk about some damn anxiety!! Talk about wanting to talk myself out of this!! haha ...
As for some of the most awesomeness news I got today .... My good friend and bridesmaid, Tiffani, IS FINALLY PREGNANT!!! They have been trying for 2 years and have month after month of disappointment ... and she had a positive test today!! OH HOW I LOVE THIS!! That makes TWO pregnant girls that will be standing by my side on that day!! WOW!! Talk about hormones running CRAZY!! I am so VERY excited for her!! And even more exciting that we can do this pregnant thing together!! LOVE IT!!
I will update after our appointment Friday .... I am sure I will be FREAKING out by that point!!
Dr. Dorsett seems to think that we will be doing our retrival on Tuesday next week ... then 5 days later .. it will be the transfer!! HOLY SHIT!! In a WEEK I will be getting pregnant!! Talk about some damn anxiety!! Talk about wanting to talk myself out of this!! haha ...
As for some of the most awesomeness news I got today .... My good friend and bridesmaid, Tiffani, IS FINALLY PREGNANT!!! They have been trying for 2 years and have month after month of disappointment ... and she had a positive test today!! OH HOW I LOVE THIS!! That makes TWO pregnant girls that will be standing by my side on that day!! WOW!! Talk about hormones running CRAZY!! I am so VERY excited for her!! And even more exciting that we can do this pregnant thing together!! LOVE IT!!
I will update after our appointment Friday .... I am sure I will be FREAKING out by that point!!
Monday, April 11, 2011
04/11 Dr's appointment
Went to Lubbock today for an egglet check and a blood draw! These little egglets are growing and it is sooooo weird to see 8 little egglets in one little ovary! But ... I guess it is a good thing because my sweet nurse Carolyn talks to them like they are doing so good! haha ... Mark didn't get to go to this appt. so she sent me home with "Egglet pictures". It is really cool looking.
I had to have a change of meds today because one of my levels was too high and they need to slow the progress down so that I don't rupture my eggs before they are ready ... that would be bad! I would have to start over and if you read my last blog ... UMMM HELL NO!! I really don't think I could do this again!! FOR ANYONE!! These damn shots hurt and man oh man ... I am HATING it! But ... I will keep a positive attitude because I only have SEVEN more days ... and the plus side is ... I AM DONE WITH MY PERIODS FOREVER!!
I will try and scan the sono picture of my egglets so you can see them ... it is pretty neat!
I had to have a change of meds today because one of my levels was too high and they need to slow the progress down so that I don't rupture my eggs before they are ready ... that would be bad! I would have to start over and if you read my last blog ... UMMM HELL NO!! I really don't think I could do this again!! FOR ANYONE!! These damn shots hurt and man oh man ... I am HATING it! But ... I will keep a positive attitude because I only have SEVEN more days ... and the plus side is ... I AM DONE WITH MY PERIODS FOREVER!!
I will try and scan the sono picture of my egglets so you can see them ... it is pretty neat!
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Reason to celebrate!!
Well ... I have to say there is one thing about this whole process that I am suPER stoked about ... I just finished my VERY LAST period!! I am thinking I will have a party! Just trying think of a theme!!
On another note ... I am on day 3 of FOUR injections and I can honestly say RIGHT now that this shit is for the birds!! I HATE those shots!! They HURT like a MOMMA when they go in. One in particular is SUPER thick and the only place to put it is in my belly ... OMG! Last night I couldn't even bend over it was so tender! But ... just 8 more days ..... JUST 8 MORE!
I go back to Lubbock tomorrow for my 2nd egglet check and a blood draw .... Mom and Tate are going because Mark has to go on a trip. I hope that she tells me that everything is moving along nicely because I REALLY don't want to increase any of these meds! According to our calendar ... I could "conceive" on Easter Sunday .... That is kinda cool. We shall see!!
On another note ... I am on day 3 of FOUR injections and I can honestly say RIGHT now that this shit is for the birds!! I HATE those shots!! They HURT like a MOMMA when they go in. One in particular is SUPER thick and the only place to put it is in my belly ... OMG! Last night I couldn't even bend over it was so tender! But ... just 8 more days ..... JUST 8 MORE!
I go back to Lubbock tomorrow for my 2nd egglet check and a blood draw .... Mom and Tate are going because Mark has to go on a trip. I hope that she tells me that everything is moving along nicely because I REALLY don't want to increase any of these meds! According to our calendar ... I could "conceive" on Easter Sunday .... That is kinda cool. We shall see!!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
04/04 Doctor's appointment
Today was my first appointment to check my levels and egg situation since I started the injections. My levels were good which means they didn't have to increase or decrease my Lupron ... (thank God!) and my eggs ... well ... I have EIGHT in each ovary and they are right now ... 4 mm ... they will end up being 18 mm ... which means ... I am gonna be FULL! My sweet nurse told me that I will know because my ovaries will let me know that they are full and that they are ready to get rid of those little (actually LARGE) egglets!
And for Mark ... he has been termed as having SUPER SPERM! haha ... He likes that title! I am not sure how they count those little suckers but the criteria for IVF is 40 million sperm ... well .. he has 216 million ... so I am pretty sure that he has a sufficient amount to get this done ... I am thinking that this won't be a problem!! Now .. I am sweet talking this uterus of mine to take the first time BECAUSE we don't have the funding to do it again ... and I am getting to old!!
I start the other 3 injections on Friday .... it could be interesting ... I will have A LOT of hormones floating around in me at that time ....... but getting closer!
And for Mark ... he has been termed as having SUPER SPERM! haha ... He likes that title! I am not sure how they count those little suckers but the criteria for IVF is 40 million sperm ... well .. he has 216 million ... so I am pretty sure that he has a sufficient amount to get this done ... I am thinking that this won't be a problem!! Now .. I am sweet talking this uterus of mine to take the first time BECAUSE we don't have the funding to do it again ... and I am getting to old!!
I start the other 3 injections on Friday .... it could be interesting ... I will have A LOT of hormones floating around in me at that time ....... but getting closer!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Injections
I am sorry that this is late ...
We are on day 5 of the LUPRON injection. Pretty much the purpose of Lupron in MY situation here is to basically throw my body into a temporary form of menopause so that my ovaries will make a lot of eggs and keep them in the ovary. I go tomorrow for the first sonogram so that we can see how I am reacting to the injection. I am curious to see if I am FULL of eggs!! haha ...
So far I am not having too bad of side effects. My boobs are more than sore, I have gained about 10 pounds and I am about to have to start some shopping for bigger tops and bras to accomodate these boobs that I have managed to sprout in the last 2 weeks!!
It is interesting how I am feeling to tell you the truth! I HATE shots!! But Mark is pretty damn good on sticking me. I may have a different tune about it by next week after I am stuck FOUR different times a day .. UGH!
We are on day 5 of the LUPRON injection. Pretty much the purpose of Lupron in MY situation here is to basically throw my body into a temporary form of menopause so that my ovaries will make a lot of eggs and keep them in the ovary. I go tomorrow for the first sonogram so that we can see how I am reacting to the injection. I am curious to see if I am FULL of eggs!! haha ...
So far I am not having too bad of side effects. My boobs are more than sore, I have gained about 10 pounds and I am about to have to start some shopping for bigger tops and bras to accomodate these boobs that I have managed to sprout in the last 2 weeks!!
It is interesting how I am feeling to tell you the truth! I HATE shots!! But Mark is pretty damn good on sticking me. I may have a different tune about it by next week after I am stuck FOUR different times a day .. UGH!
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